just a mediocre
How do you prove your worth if people already typecast you of a limited ability?
How?
How do you prove your worth if people already typecast you of a limited ability?
How?
Me: HmmHmm..*smiles pretentiously happy he didn’t start “Chiam C Tonging” me upon hearing where I live…*
Taxi-Uncle: Wah! Kua that china cha bo! *points to a middle aged woman on the street* Wah…ganina! Neh so small, belly so fat… china woman where got cheo hor!? Kan la… must fuck then know la! *looks at another innocent lady pedestrain* Wah! This one cheo ah! Can kan (fuck) ah! Kua her neh…wa…this one good man. Make her scream super shiok ah! Ko yi song song (give her pleasure)… whahahaha… I tell you, uncle see woman no wrong one… I one eye can tell how good she is liao… china woman very easy to see one…one look I know! Whahahaaha…
Me: Uh…
Taxi-Uncle: China ah…anything also good. Say their country strong…how to test? Dig their woman la! Whahahaha…. Uncle xie kuai lan hor? (uncle’s very naughty ey?) whahahaha
Me: Er…
Taxi-Uncle: Tell you ah! You think woman very difficult to please?
Me: ?
Taxi-Uncle: No la! Dick no need big one! Let uncle sing you a song! ~to the tune of Bengawan Solo~ “Mang-Ga-Lee so LONG!” whahahahaa…. Indians think their dicks very long la! Always look down on us Chinese! Ganina! Fuck them la! You know or not.. ? wahahahaha
Me: …
Taxi-Uncle: Small dicks can screw around inside the hole… big dicks make them pain…they don’t like wan la…bloody cibye! Whahahaaha Uncle xie kuai lan hor? whahahaha
Me: !
Taxi-Uncle: I tell you…you knw why Bin Laden hates George Bush and George Bush hate Saddam Hussein or not?
Me: *looks out onto the road contemplating…*
Taxi-Uncle: Aiya… bin laden see her wife’s cibye and saw bush mah! So he angry lor! Whahahahaha… the george bush wife also not happy because BUSH stand for Bash Up Saddam Hussein! Whahahaha… Uncle xie kuai lan hor? Whahahaha
Me: *plots my escape maneuver*
Taxi-Uncle: Poton Pasir…
Me: *NO! NOT AGAIN! NOT ANOTHER OPPO*SITION PARTY GLORIFYING SPEECH!*
Taxi-Uncle: You knw ..P*P always ask us to Pay and Pay..
Me: Uncle, please kill me.
Taxi Uncle: Har? Aiya you listen..W*rker Party mean Why Pay..then the S*P is So Don’t Pay, Uncle xie kuai lan hor? Whahaha…
Me: Uncle! You….
Taxi-Uncle: Aiya! Paisey! Missed the turn to Poton Pasir! Don’t worry ah! Uncle can U-turn infront! No need scared!
I cannot believe I made it through it all.

My friend who was leaving F*ssil for another company told me to use make use of his staff discount on his very last day… what was I to do? It was not a mediocre amount mind you, we are talking about a freaking 50% off selling price! Woohoo!!
It was worth every penny! Everyone loves my watch! But not more than me of cos!
Loves it. Loves it. Looooves it.
Braised escargots in cognac served with haricot vert and brioche.
Drunken snails? Can’t be a good thing when you are already slow in the first place…
Pan roasted quail served with creamed sweet corn and madeira jus.
Some very confused “jiao” trying to act angmo?
I’m going to this fancy restaurant situated along Keong Saik Street come Monday, but the menu boggles me. How do they expect me to decide between something I can’t pronounce and something I feel for? (Hurry up snail! Stop wobbling and move your big fat shell!). These delicacies come as a part of my dinner treat that is way overdued: I’ve been confirmed as a full-fledged graphic designer of the company back in August.
Being seriously caught up with work, I didn’t even realised that time flew by bringing little ol’ me here into the last few months of the year. I anticipate this dinner appointment to be somewhat momentous; my boss would be taking the opportunity to rant or rave about my performance in the past months, and I’ll be given a chance to thank them for their nurturing efforts. It’s kinda nerve-racking to be assessed in any way regardless of the subject. I’m just gonna have to face the music when it comes and hope it’s the genre I like.
Scary! Argh!!!
Well, I don’t know what the future brings, but one thing’s for sure good or bad, I will shut my trap and opt to point at the menu when I order.
http://www.hotel1929.com/dining/ember.htm
My boss calls me that these days since i shared with him a hilarious account of my mum commenting on my weight. The story goes that one evening after dinner at a hawker centre, my family and i were talking a brisk walk around the neighbour-hood shops when THE ONE with an insatiable appetite decides to buy a loaf of cheese buttered bread for supper. It was only when we were back in the car on our way home did my mum realised i had made plans to snack. She held the loaf of bread up to her face and asked in Teochew, “You still eating?” I find this question rather self-evident and also puzzling, when was eating or snacking for that matter ever an issue with parents? You think they always ask you to eat more ey?
“You better not eat anymore, look at how fat you are!”
*pupils dilate, lungs contracts, the world spins out of control*
My sis giggled upon hearing. We were all very amused. I cannot believe what my mum just said. Me? Fat? Ridiculous! Totally incomprehensible… yet i was over the moon, i’m overjoyed that she’d notice the transformation, that its harvest time for the substantial amount of bulk i’ve gained! Gym paid off! Yippee!
I’m officially a fatty in the eyes of my mum. Sweet.
And you ask me what I want this year
And I try to make this kind and clear
Just the chance that maybe we’ll find better days
Cause I don’t need boxes wrapped in strings
And designer love and empty things
Just the chance that maybe we’ll find better days
So take these words and sing out loud
Cause everyone is forgiven now
Cause tonight’s the night the world begins again
I need someplace simple where we can live
And something only you can give
And that’s faith and trust and peace while we’re alive
And the one poor Child who saved this world
And there’s ten million more who probably could
If we all just stopped and said a prayer for them
So take these words and sing out loud
Cause everyone is forgiven now
Cause tonight’s the night the world begins again
I wish everyone was loved tonight
And that someone might stop this endless fight
Just the chance that maybe we’ll find better days
So take these words and sing out loud
Cause everyone is forgiven now
Cause tonight’s the night the world begins again
Cause tonight’s the night the world begins again

This was me asking a tailor in Chinatown about his rates. Sounds normal right? Didn’t seem too exaggerated or try hard to impress? Right, but I asked him in Chinese,
“Bu hao yi si, ma fan ni yi xia, qing wen zuo yi jian ku zi ni zhe me xuan?”
To my bewilderment, the tailor’s response was, ” Wah Are you local?” (Wa Ni shi ben di ren ma?). So how crude must I sound for him to think otherwise? “Uncle, tailor pants how much?” or “One pants how much?” Isn’t it ridiculous how he no longer associate proper structured questions (or manners for that matter) with “locals” anymore? Or is it that when we converse in Chinese, people tend to sound drastically unrefined? I don’t wish for it to be true but chances are, if I said what I said in the English format, no one would bat an eyelid.
My friend who was around shared my sentiments: it’s apparent to most people that Chinese is the “second language” yet ironically our “mother tongue”, thus resulting in the general public happily conversing with it in their daily lives but don’t bother exploring the technicalities and beauty of the words… Strangely, some of these people actually out-and-out admit, “My chinese no good la”. If that being the case, may I ask what the fuck are you good at? Cannot speak Ang-Mo well, cannot Jiang Hua Yu properly, why don’t you just be friends with the fly hovering above you, you useless piece of shit.
Ehem sorry, I lost my kewl. This is not the first time some stranger has pointed out that I don’t sound local and probably won’t be the last. It is really getting on my nerves especially when I’m the one making the effort to be polite and accurate in my speech and all that they could muster up to tell me is that I’m not as authentic a Singaporean as they are Gan Ni Na How’s dat for a start? Na Bei
I know it ain’t no biggie, it just bothered me enough to blog it down.
This is precisely why I’m a fan of finger nit-bits at special gatherings or launches cos the best parties are those with a server making his rounds with a big plate full of little delights, and I’m rating the plate I had last night as the most fulfilling and well stocked one I’ve had since the beginning of time (ok, just my period of being a socialite-wannabe la). Little drops of dumplings, slices of pizza, steps of crispy tempura and then some
all placed liken a colour spectrum in its full array. My attention was nowhere near the free booze, instead I was so actively stalking the server it’s not even funny. I eventually left still having a tingling feeling to munch and proceeded to masticate a McChicken with ease: Ideal way to end my night out. *burp*
I’m just glad genetics is on my side.

(x) snuck out of the house
(x) gotten lost in your city
(x) seen a shooting star
( ) had a serious surgery
(x) gone out in public in your pajamas
(x) kissed a stranger
(x) hugged a stranger
(x) been in a fist fight
( ) been arrested
(x) done drugs
(x) Had alcohol
(x) laughed and had milk/coke come out of your nose
(x) pushed all the buttons on an elevator
(x) been in love
(x) been close to love
(x) been to a casino
( ) been skydiving
(x) broken a bone
(x) skinny-dipped
(x) skipped school
( ) flashed someone
( ) saw a therapist
(x) played spin the bottle
(x) gotten stitches
(x) drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour– or water
(x) bitten someone
(x) been to Disneyland
(x) gotten the chicken pox
(x) kissed a member of the same sex
( ) crashed into a friend’s car
(x) been to Japan
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
(x) had a crush on someone of the same sex
(x) had feelings for someone who didnt have them back
( ) stolen something from your job
(x) gone on a blind date
(x) lied to a friend
(x) had a crush on a teacher
( ) celebrated mardi-gras
( ) been to Europe
(x) slept with a co-worker
( ) been married
( ) gotten divorced
( ) had children
(x) seen someone die
( ) had a close friend die
(x) Been on a plane
( ) Seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
(x) Thrown up in a bar
( ) Purposely set a part of myself on fire
(x) Eaten Sushi
(x) Been snowboarding/skiing
(x) Met someone in person from the internet
( ) lost a child
(x) gone to college
(x) graduated college
( ) done hard drugs
( ) tried killing yourself
(x) fired a gun
(x) purposely hurt yourself
(x) taken painkillers
( ) miss someone right now
betcha did’nt recognise the wild child in me ey?
It was at that same moment I saw three angmos happily conversing in some warped European tongue by the free standing area
Suddenly, my concern with migration and my burning rage dissipate, curiosity took over.
No prize for guessing they were models. And no, it wasn’t because they were particularly stunning (I can stun more people with my morning bed hair and face laced with dried eye poop) or that they had the stature that could only belong to the descendants of some Greek gods
it was simply the portfolio they were holding that gave them away: an A4 sized black folder that was thick with plastic slips that held photos (Yes, I’ve just proven I’m part of the America Next Top Model fanbase)
As i observed these 3 specimens riding on public transport, I began to wonder how they would have fared amongst their countrymen had they tried to pursue a modeling career on their own home grounds. One of them looks a bit crossed-eyed because of his thin nose bridge, the other resembles some italiano punk who makes pizza for a living and the last came across as just a very typical looking blondie you’d find in any Irish pub
how dare they claim to be models! What audacity! Could they have travel all these distance to work because it is true that in this part of the world we still adopt Western-envy? That having strong, distinct Caucasian features is deemed the epitome of beauty?
Er
actually the answer is a resounding YES! Haha! As much as we try not to admit it, there is something exclusive about being a Caucasian, more so if you reside in the Asia Pacific regions. There seems to be somewhat of a superiority complex whether we are talking about built, intelligence (excluding the Americans) or just character
I mean to be honest, I seldom meet very interesting Asians (other than those in the creative line), or rather seldom associate “interesting” with being one.
Asians are usually nice. Down to earth. Reserved. Polite. Nice. Respectful. Nice
er…
Boring isn’t it? I love being a Chinese but I think I’d have done more with white skin. Very immoral and dishonorable to say something like this right? Its one of those “heaven will strike you down with lightning” kind of thing to say
but its not like i’m gonna get my skin bleached and start sleeping with juveniles…just that I’m kewl enough to admit it so shame me if you will.
I sign off with an ending thought - If a “cannot make it” caucasian has to come to this part of the world to be looked up to
then where can a “cannot make it” asian run to?
Go figure.